A Cadillac to Glory

I just want everyone to know that I am grateful for all the love and support through this difficult and emotional time and from the bottom of my heart I thank you all!

Remembering Renée

Dedicated to my mom, Renée and anyone who is missing their mom today, Mothers Day 2010.

On this day for mother I have a special wish, I want to fill your life with love and happiness. I would like to kindly say, I hope that it's just great, I hope its fun, because you are . . . a mother, second to none!

I want to share some time with you and see your smile so fair, I want to look into your eyes and show you that I care. But alas I fear it ne'er will be at least, not upon this plane, because you're gone, no longer here, except in memory and pain. I still feel loss and my pain is real, I often wonder if ever it will heal.

One thing will always stay with me when I think of you, and that is how you loved me and always saw me through. You told me I could do it if I really tried! You held me and you wiped my face whenever I would cry.

I will never forget you, my hero you'll always be, and one day soon I'll make you proud, just you wait and see.

I will love you forever mom!

Merle

A study in Happiness, In Black and White

Monday, June 23, 2008





The picture to the right is one of the most beautiful I have ever had the pleasure to gaze upon. It evokes so many emotions for me: joy, peace, happiness, contentment, comfort, and most assuredly love.

I felt these and so many other emotions when I first saw this picture. It made me think about my own mom and how I felt when she would just grab me and kiss me and make me laugh. It didn’t happen everyday, so I really enjoyed it, when it did. Looking at Dakota’s face in that picture was real for me, I felt that smile! I understood what that feels like . . . to be loved that well.

My mom was no easy taskmaster, she believed in the . . . well; let’s call it the ‘firm hand method’. Still I always knew she was right, I just hated the fact that she was right. But I loved it when she loved me. There never was and never will be any other love that trumps that love.

When I think about mom, I mean really set my mind on her; I am carried back to a time when the days were long and bright. It’s not even really a thought as much as it is a feeling. I feel a warm summer’s day, and I’m laying in the grass in my grandmother’s front yard. I’m lying flat on my back, looking up at a few small clouds floating lazily across an otherwise clear blue sky. I hear sounds all around me but none of them can distract me from the moment. My mom taught me how to be free, whether . . . she meant to or not.

My mom was a single parent, raising four challenges. I am so grateful to God, that I got the mom I got! She never gave up on me, and she wouldn’t let me give up on me either. I only wish to honour her; I want her to know “I got it!” I know what it is you want me to know and I will remember those things, and more importantly I will pass them on. I will put my thoughts into action. I will “let my deeds speak louder than words”, in every area of my life because you taught me that.

Because you will forever be the most important little voice in the back of my mind, constantly reminding me that I “was raised better than that!” and I need to “act like I know better!” I will, because I love you, because you were right, and you loved me well enough to share these things with me


Merle Roberts © 2008

Joey Young

I have known a few men in my time whom I consider friends, and I don't use that label lightly because it is a word that speaks of enormous committment. Being a friend is NOT the same as family, a friend is someone whose shit you choose to put up with because you know their shit is not the sum of who they are, or vice versa, not that they always . . . anyhow! Joey young is a friend of mine and He's bringing his mother and sisters remains to Newfoundland, and I want to help him, So I ask, if you all could please pray for a safe and succesful journey for us as we drive Renee & Nina Darleen back home, also Joey & I have been trying to get some sponsorship from a few companies along the way so that we can be certain that there are no emergencies (Shit comes up on the road!) or "unexpecteds" that defeat us on our important and sacred journey, so please keep us in your thoughts and please ask God to keep us in his hands and ask him to open the hearts of those we come in contact with and may we bring only good wherever we may go.

Peace
Merle

A Cadillac To Glory

I can't believe it's only been a month since we lost Nina Darleen & 4 since Renée It seems so much longer. I also can't believe I'm going back to Newfoundland, but I am so happy I am. Joey has asked me if I could document the journey and burial of  his mom and sister, and of course I am honoured to do anything for these, my friends, and to be there to say a final goodbye to Renée, is sure to be one of my life's defining moments. I can't seem to post my videos on this blog so please visit 'asmerlesworldturns.blogspot.com' and my facebook page to see my tribute video to Renée. But now I'd like to introduce A Cadillac To Glory, This is a documentary that Joey and I are producing, which follows the journey of a son and brother struggling to keep his promise to honour his mother and his sister. Joey Young is bringing them home for their final rest and is overwhelmed; He's overwhelmed by his immense loss, by the stress of having to make final arrangements for mom and sis, and by trying to figure out how he's going to pay for it all! Then the miracles start . . . Joey's family has been so generous in helping get our precious Nina Darleen and Renée home, but we still have challenges. We are aprroaching several companies to help us make this journey a reality and I am very hopeful and feel positive that we will be able to count them as team members soon.

I am very excited about this project because it will be produced, directed, edited and distributed online by us. We will put up a website where you can go and watch the documentaries and music videos we will be producing in the near future.

Peace & respect

Merle